I'll admit, 2016 isn't going like I anticipated. Like most of you ladies(or gents) I had huge goals and major items to check off my to-do list. To be completely honest I was getting a lot done. I'd been traveling, making some money from projects I truly enjoyed and seeing growth. I was accomplishing those goals one by one when suddenly things came to a halt. I felt an internal shift pushing me to slow down, reflect on the goals I had set for myself and evaluate why.
I'm the type of person that is always coming up with fresh ideas. For my blog, youtube channel and support group I constantly find myself wondering, "so what's next?". However, not once in the midst of brainstorming and plotting my next big idea did I ever consult with God. I never asked God if this was his idea or just a good idea.
If you've been following me for a while (comment below if you remember my blogspot) you may know that my faith has been something that has always wavered. However, last year I made a commitment to make my faith my number one priority.
A few weeks ago I realized that it was no longer my priority. I had swapped that in for things like:
- Growing my Youtube Channel
- Launching my product line
- Producing e-courses
...and a bunch of other tasks that had no real connection with my purpose or what I believe I was put on this earth do. Most of the milestones I had set were purely for self gain. Although there isn't anything wrong having goals like this, I noticed that I didn't ever consult with God about them asking questions like.
- Is this your idea?
- Is the timing right? Should I pursue this right now?
- How can I help others by accomplishing this?
- If I reach this goal, how will that glorify your name instead of my own?
I found myself feeling disappointed, confused and upset because I knew deep down that these are the types of questions that determine the success of a goal. I also knew that in listening to that inner voice(better know as the holy spirit) I'd be forced to let go of a few projects, tell people no and end a few relationships. After much prayer, I've finally gotten to a point where I am comfortable with simply letting go and following the plan God has for me life.